Thinking of you mum, today as always. I keep reading things or finding out new information that would have really helped me to give you the best care. It makes me sad that I only know these things now, I wish I knew them sooner and could have helped make life as best as possible for you. I’m sorry I let you down, I hope there was enough love and happiness for you and that you know I really did only ever want to give you the best life I could. I love you mum, and I wish I could try again and I’m sorry that I can’t xxxx