Thinking of you lots this week mum, as always, and especially today. I've talked about you loads and my new job has given me a lot of insight (sadly) into older people's care and the sad reality of hospitals and care homes. I'm so glad you were spared that, but I do so wish we'd had just a little more time together. We had so many fun things planned and I will always wish we got to do then together. Did I tell you Jethro now has a partner! I'm not sure they're getting on but i would have loved to have seen them together with you and to see your memorial paver for nan and your surprise, meant to be a celebration of life but sadly you never got to see, paver in your name. And we had the chalet trip and ascot day, you left me when we had so much to look forward to. I miss you so much mum and I really hope you realised how much I loved and cherished you even if I didn't show it. I hope you were happy and felt cared for and I'm really sorry if I didn't care for you as well I'd hoped. My thoughts are always with you and I love you now and forever xxxxx sweet dreams my beautiful mama and I wish you were with me to see the lights dance in 2017 xxxx