Hi mum, it’s mother’s day weekend in Australia. It makes me sad to see all the reminders that I can’t make a fuss of you and try to show you how much I love you. I hope the people who are lucky enough to have their mums are appreciating every second together. I know I didn’t make the most of our time, and it’s my biggest regret in my life. Those opportunities I missed to be close to you and hold your hand and show how much I cared. I’m so sorry mum. I wish we’d both done a few things differently but sadly it’s too late to change that now. So I guess all I can do is try to do more positive things moving forward and live my days for both of us and celebrate your life in other ways. I miss you mum. It’s nearly three years. Your loss doesn’t feel any less painful yet but maybe it never will. I love you. I always have and always will. I wish so much that you’d had the life you deserved my beautiful, funny, ridiculously clever angel. Life really is unfair sometimes xxxx