Hi mum, I wanted to tell you that I’m going back to Australia. I don’t know for how long or what will happen, it all feels different this time now that you are gone. I don’t think I’d be leaving if you were still here and it makes me sad to think I’m leaving you and your home behind. But I need to go back and see if I can be happy there and I hope I’ll be taking enough of you with me in my heart. The last months without you have been so difficult and upsetting and maybe I need this new start to become more of my self again. I wish you’d got to see Australia mum, you wouldn’t have liked the heat but I think the beaches and animals would have found there way into your heart. I miss you still so much mum, there are so many more things I wish I knew about you and things I should said to you. You were so strong mum, much stronger than anyone I’ve ever known, and I’m going to keep on going to find some of your strength and have a life I hope you’d be proud of. You’re always in my thoughts mum. I love you xxx