Hi mum, I’m sorry it’s been a while. It doesn’t mean you haven’t been in my thoughts. I think about you often but I also don’t allow myself to think too much because it’s still too hard mum. Ticking over to 2020, another year you’ll never get to see, and another year since I saw you and hugged you. I’m so sorry mum, I still feel so sad about not appreciating you when I was with you, I miss you still so much. I love you mum. I wish I could change how things turned out, you didn’t deserve any of this. Thinking of you now and always xxxxx