Merry Christmas mum. This is the 4th Christmas without you, I still miss you and wish you were here to celebrate with me (or bah humbug it all lol). It’s so strange having Christmas in Australia where it’s warm and light, doesn’t feel the same and I think someways helps with your loss as it’s not familiar so doesn’t make me sad over memories. You are still in my thoughts though and I still have the last gift you gave me, perfume, I keep it and spray it on certain occasions as it makes me happy sad. Monkey world are bringing out a new series mum, you’d love that, and I saw all the Christmas decorated pillow cases in their enclosures, so cute. Would love to hug you mum and hear you giggle, we don’t have a real family any more without you, it was always hanging on by a thread let’s be honest but that illusion has shattered now. I think we are all still coming to terms with losing you and we never realised how truly vital you were to all of our lives. I’m thinking of you mum, today as always. I love you. Nadolig llawen cariad 💗 xxx